I am currently getting anon messages telling me i am a piece of shit for asking for donations for my bottom surgery and facial and torso surgeries.
The main reason i made the gofundme was i could myself put money into it and be able to actually save it. They use a separate system called WEPAY that holds all the funds till you withdraw them after you reach your goal. So i have a place to put money i am personally saving or making from Satori Magic and keep it separate from other savings accounts. The other cool thing about gofundme is you can put “incentives” so if a person donates a certain amount they get something in return. I liked this idea because it felt less like donations and more like i am selling goods or services. i know i have made a different page in the past but i made that one during a bad time when i was still digesting everything and felt i was premature to start that process plus it had a time limit which didnt work for me.
I am not trying to beg for money i am just doing what i can to get what is a medical necessity for my mental well being. I thought making it around my birthday would be the best time then after that i would have ideas of other incentives to use during the fundraiser.
I dont see how attacking me helps anyone anyway. That is just rude.
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